i have a feeling 2009 is going to be an epic year.
it's only been a week since i got back to nashville, but in some ways i feel like it's been way longer. i've been learning a lot about myself & about the "box" that we all build around ourselves & walk around in like zombies without a clue what we're doing & without a clue how dead we are to all the life outside said "box". I realize this is quite rambly sounding already and probably doesn't make any sense (it probably won't to me if I were to read it again with more than three hours of sleep.hah.), but there's so much going on in my mind right now & so much change happening that I couldn't possibly put it into words. All I know is that I feel like I'm waking up. I feel like I'm alive. And I would venture to say that I have not felt this way ever. It has something to do with reality revealing itself to me all over the place. Not like I'm becoming a realist or anything. In fact, I've actually been surprised to find that my optimism about life has remained intact & has even become stronger.
I have no clue what's in store. I feel like I'm constantly stepping into unknown territory now, due to a few catalysts that entered my life at the end of 08. This is utterly terrifying and utterly liberating all at once. Like I said, even after just 14 days of the new year, I feel like 2009 is going to be epic. I used to hate the unknown, but now i'm learning to love and embrace it.